This blog post may seem a little crazy but I’m going to put it down to the 18.9mmol/L that I’m currently experiencing coupled with the day from hell (diabetes wise), 5 doses of either the flu or a cold in a row over the winter and some serious sleep depravation!

Either way I NEED TO VENT so I’m doing it here in the hope that it will help me feel better and someone might say she’ll be right! Plus I can’t bemoan the situation to my partner cos I’ve been doing that for about 30 minutes with the it’s not fair, the sky is falling routines that I have about 5 times a year when for whatever reason I’ve had enough and need a little bitching to feel better.

*Ahem*

Dear Diabetes,

I am writing this letter and publishing it on our blog because tonight, you have pushed me too far – I’ve had enough!

As a rule, I rarely have an unkind word for you, my mother telling me from a young age that if you can’t say anything nice then not to say anything at all but you have left me with no choice tonight Diabetes. Since the age of 8 you and I have lived side by side, sharing every aspect of my life together – school, university, the adventures, travel, beers, countless meals, snacks and games of hockey, squash and scrabble. It has been an uneasy truce at times but we know each other so well. So well do we know each other that now, after almost 20 years it is impossible for me to imagine a life without you. Even though you are  abusive, incessantly demanding, never say thank you, never make the bed or cook dinner, never clean the house or the car, never do the washing or buy the groceries a life without you would seem alien to me. A strange, unfamiliar life.

You take me for granted Diabetes, you know that I will never leave you or forget about you even for a minute so you take advantage whenever you can to ruin my life sometimes for hours at a time by misbehaving, not doing the things that you should, holding me hostage with high blood glucose, threatening me with hypos, coma, amputation, blindness and sore fingers.

You know that I will never go away on holiday without you, never leave you at home during the day while I go to work and that even if I do forget you, you will still be there but still, it would be nice if you could give me a little slack just for a day without any highs, lows or swings!

Screw you Diabetes.

- Aaron